IT WAS RAINING HEAVILY during the day, and a boat had reached under the post-hurricane monsoon with two men who came from Bluefields. They were two of the younger Solomons—Bernardo and Luis. Because of how rough the sea was they decided to buckle down and go all the way to Bangkukuk and not stop in Monkey Point to drop cargo off—little things for the shoppes in between the villages. Or maybe it was just a dream in a computer or in a body that still existed somewhere, maybe he was dead and what was left was a zombie with dreams from another life that had been recorded in an artificial mind.
At the clinic the Sukia say that a living person can be preserved and reanimated in the distant future but that if you raise a man from the dead you will only get a demon. As time passes there are more and more medical advances that make the unthinkable a reality. But we believe that a zombie is something different because the zombie isn’t you anymore. A zombie is like when your hunting dog has rabies passed to him from another animal, and he turns on you and the people who made him grow from when he was first born.
Does the animal actually die? Or is it just the community that says that because he changes and becomes a danger?
On that day the tropical storm began in the sea after Long Beach—one of the extended stretches of beach called Long Beach that spans from Bluefields to Bangkukuk and Punta de Aguila as well. Bernardo the cowboy, the thrill-chasing speedboat driver had the fiber glass vessel flying off the waves and constantly crashing into the sea. The entire ride can take between 4–8 hours, or not at all, depending on the weather. On that day, the weather was really bad and Bernardo was eager to make there in one piece, but that doesn’t mean he shouldn’t get his kicks and scare Luis Salomon who was standing and gripping a rope that was tied to the prow.
He’s been knocked down several times when the boat would lose control and crash into the tropical storm sea’s violent relief. Is it It’s a Beautiful Life or another film, one about a zombie—he felt in between states of being and as if his will to live was dissolving into nothingness.
Walter was still a young boy at the time. A gigantic square ton of pure physical pressure came crashing into them when a wave hit them on the side of the fiberglass motorboat and threw them a long ways away, launching the vessel to fall belly-first into a valley of ocean waves that could only exist for little over a minute after. It would never end—the whole eight hours that this particular speedboat trip had taken to complete were a terrifying nightmare. The cargo was skillfully strapped in and covered by a large piece of thick black construction plastic. The sky was gray and the mist from the storm and the agitated sea made it near impossible to delineate the change from water to air and air to cloud in the horizon that was only a moving projection behind the rainfall.
It was just a memory, but was it actually something he remembered by himself and did it in reality echo anything from his own experience? His was a simple Nokia telephone of indestructible polymer from the Chinaman’s shop in Bluefields’ Central Neighborhood, it was his looking glass and it confused him plenty now. It was like the others in all the stores, but it had a different display with things that no one from this world could read. However he knew—at least—that it was telling him about his deal back when he was still living in his world, or what he knew as the world to him. From what he could recognize, it was possible that he wasn’t even on a planet anymore but rather flying through the void in a vessel. That might be what happened after the green Martians first reached by their Indian land.
The sea was like a meager hunting dog that you knew with sorrow that you could put down soon because he’s rabid. You can’t kill the water, only the water can you. It seems like the water could never feel sorry for you, but she is very forgiving much of the time, and she ignore that you are never there to do her bidding, to the contrary you are a thief in her bounty. The white man can poison the sea and make her foul and even more cruel than she is when the winds agitate her bosom, like a drunkard who has forgotten that he too was born from his own mother when she was still very young.
Walter Young was suddenly taken back to a replication of that time in the bush when the magician talked to him and he forgotten what the magician needed for him to let go. They called the creature duhindu, suhindu or duende, in Spanish. It had been like that for ever since before he was born. The master of the deer, he lives deep in the forest and looks after the armadillos, wild boar, spotted paca and West Indian hog, and they like to make love to the men, women, children and animals that they frequently abduct. That’s what the villagers say for the most part, the people who are taken away by the duhindu and then rescued by the Sukia, rarely have anything to say about the experience.
He’d even forgotten what the Sukia had told him the first time he’d disappeared, all he remembers is that a few days after he came home after walking in the jungle all afternoon listening to the wind blowing through the branches of the trees. He sat in his nylon mesh hammock in the living area inside his wooden plank house with a blue plastic bowl of Dorado filets cooked in coconut broth with rice and seasoned with humid salt from a weathered polyethylene bag and chopped habanero peppers. He accompanied his commonplace dinner with a couple of Caribbean coast flour tortillas, made from deep-fried journey cake dough and onion carpaccio.
They ripped everything he’d ever learned about Roger Villa from his mind. Most of it were things he’d learned from the eavesdropping radio transmissions that Primero Bilwi would broadcast on vacant AM frequencies anonymously. They would play the content off Henry Diculo’s pirate Facebook pages that would appear after the previous one was flagged down. In all honesty, he never questioned why anyone would ever care about the young Nicaraguan poet’s life and what he had to say. Niether did he ever stop to think how blown-out and ridiculously overrated every single meticulously scrutinized gaffe was, and he’d even grown to accept that Betsy’s body image issues were as important if not more than his peoples’ ancestral land rights.
OpIt was the summer, a month before the ten-month rainfall that came every year and that he preferred exponentially to the heat. There were four hammocks strung in the living space one had the baby in it, another held two quarrelling children and the third was empty. His wife had just finished cleaning up after dinner and was probably outside with one of her sisters or under a tree by herself.
Then one day on an evening in October 2013, Roger Villa and two white men from the US appeared in Alambingkamban, they were supposedly talking to villagers and shooting a documentary about Indigenous peoples’ history and culture. What they were really doing was finding out about the armed groups and trying to get an accurate list of their identities and stories. He didn’t trust the outsiders and neither did anyone else in the community. When they tried hitting the saloon, the most locuacious of drunks would tell them decoy tales that ranged from straight-faced sarcasm to the bitterest forms of deceit when it came to anything related to the outlawed fighters.
The duhindu had fed his mind with the memories of other people from the Southern Caribbean Region, Garifunas from Orinoco who knew Villa from his childhood. When the images and the stories settled, he could extract new meaning from his own contact with the poet in the fifteen days he was in Alambingkamban and in the jungle.
Henry Diculo hated Roger Villa more than anything in the world, or was at least willing to pretend to for extra income. The well-respected journalist despotricated against the young poet with anything he could throw at him to see if it stuck. One day, the Managua chicken bus-riding versifier/student/marijuana smoker with no political affiliations was characterized as a Machiavellian aristocrat who was trying to destroy Nicaragua.
The next day he was a bad father, the day after that his son was in reality his stepson. He was a coward and he couldn’t stand up to his wife—bam! he was an abusive spouse. These Facebook watch parties included forged and manipulated tracking information that Diculo or someone equally upset would comment in the most acerbic tone. And these venomous turn-takers also liked to get nice and drunk for their little shows. They would regularly smoke rocks as well, but they at least had enough sense to not brag on-air about the crack. Instead they’d go all out on piling on to each other’s snuff fantasies in repeated attempts of setting off some psycho that could be in their audience.
Like practically everyone in the Mosquito Coast, Walter Young had been a regular radio listener his entire life. Nothing he’d ever heard had any possible comparison to the steady earful he was then getting consuetudinarily from the omnipresent Roger Villa audio stream. Because when nobody was there to trash him he would remain on air and anything his phone could pick up would be heard live by listeners. Henry Diculo rode that hack for years and his editors had all kinds of fun with the sound. There was one day for example that they recorded a nice loud fart from a cargo shorts pocket and would then play it over and over over the sound feed or loop it by itself for hours. They’d do the same with recovered sex moans and whenever Roger Villa would say an insult around his tracking devices.
Years after when Walter was in his late forties, he was elected President of Krukira up on the Honduran side of the Mosquitia, he didn’t have time to stick his ear on the radio speaker and see what bullshit he could sort out from all the noise that could come from a hacked phone, that at one moment could be locked in a car’s glove compartment and the next it could be on the table in a sidewalk cafe getting a clean shot of whatever the big evening scoop was going to be on the latest major minutia that they caught in Dolby Surround.
Walter had grown up and had important responsibilities and a life of his own, he would only tune in every now and then—ocassionally—on Henry Diculo’s regularly produced diatribe. All of his collaborators were sick and tired of the transmissions that also included any possible computer screenshot or robbery by any other form of Roger Villa’s work read aloud. But like their leader, when there was nothing else to listen to, they could be counted on to listen in on the latest gratuitous Nicaraguan dirt‑y celebrity gossip.
If anyone in a Miskitu community needed to talk about some innocuous topic like baseball or the weather, the latest or a choice Roger Villa con tale could also make the perfect non-conversation subject. The same was true for the wider audience that includes every big mouth bum that’s hustling their own blended bullshit among the most easily exploitable of mindless sheeple.
From very early on Roger Villa liked to pontificate on all kinds of different matters that concerned very different people much more than others like himself, the unauthorized and poorly commented transmissions would always emphasize the most divisive aspects of his open mouth workshopping of philosophical ideas that were often very crass and sold just like that to billions of people around the world. It was regrettable to the poet who could only imagine what was going on. Roger Villa had trouble separating his authentic production from these by all accounts incomplete and very private thoughts that were thrust irresponsibly into the public forum.
Despite the Nicaraguan proto-novelist’s shame and embarrassment, some of these early-stage thoughts-in-progress in the form of gaffes were well-accepted among many of the implicated parties, especially those who hated or have never heard of political correctness. Before the marginalia was coached into exploiting fake indignation, they were already masters of the “poor me” craft whenever Roger Villa was around—they did not need nor receive any of those funnelled funds for those purposes. The poet’s rhetoric was also useful without it being flipped against him, and villagers in the Indigenous communities would use it rightfully to deal with central government authorities and other outsiders.
Pascal Bidet and his brother would often find the most outlandish and disturbing Roger Villa maxims slowing down their blood thirst. Earl from Rama Cay knew the poet when they were children and were briefly acquaintances at the Moravian school. And when he reached by the community, Bernardo was the one who took him and the American filmmakers around to the other villages on his boat to meet with the other Indians.
During the trip through the Caribbean Coast one of Henry Diculo’s unidentified gangster journalists accused the foreign filmmakers of being Internet trolls on the poet’s media channels and exhorted Indians and Afro-descendants to capture them and process them in accordance to their traditional customs. On this occasion, Roger Villa was the victim, and they were to be aware of injecting his systems with malware in order to steal his poems and any other sensitive information they could find. After shooting and when the poet began his post-production role they wiped his hard drive remotely and then blamed the filmmakers again.
They were supposedly fake journalists planted by a conservative faction of the CIA and they were paid with drug money that was laundered through evangelical churches and Betsy’s casinos all over Nicaragua. And their hidden agenda was to force Roger Villa to support La Contra in their businesses and warfare politics.
All this ruckus, had the American expats who lived in Nicaragua more on the uneasy side than anything else. Baby Cherry and Ambassador Tribb were at each other’s throats. The 24/7 Halloween party was always out of hand, and could easily go from lewd and lascivious to murderous gore faster than a slasher film. People were frequently rotated from commenting on the radio, to operating cloned identities on social media, and then into silence again. There were black sites popping up all over the country and for the most part, they hosted aggressive children while they were groomed for modern-day slavery. Unleashing their rage on Roger Villa’s family would later serve as the political machine’s perfect excuse to justify the abused asset’s sorrow and serfdom to them.
Walter Young became aware of this scheme and saw it for himself on a trip to Bilwi in 2021 when he learned that the new one-laptop-per-child wasn’t just hoarding 80% of the simpler and more inexpensive WiFi computers that they were supposed to be donating to local public schools but that they were also hosting hackathons in the evenings and on weekends where poorly supervised teens had unprotected sex and consumed drugs and alcohol while they teased and tormented Roger Villa for an army of hackers that were always standing by.
For years and years and years, political figures and foreign mission representatives in different countries would often mislead everyone on their involvement in the brewing political scandal that seemed would never boil over. They would welcome the street cred or condemn the shenanigans according to their most immediate convenience and always leaving enough ambiguity to try to please everyone. Walter was far from being the exception, he had no idea how any of that worked and what all of that meant and implied. As far as he was concerned, it wasn’t his problem and it kept people away from his business.
In all that time the people that came and went on the air started sane and by the time they lost their minds, they would be promptly replaced with a fresh batch of anonymous personalities. It was only with the apparition of Roger Villa on-air reviewers from community radio stations in Birmania Tara, Wisconsin, Cracra, Torre Dos and Ribra provoked a wave of Grisis Siknis outbreaks and a new war with the Pacific coast, that the Miskitu people became aware of the destructive power of the poet’s curse.
“The MRS is so fucking full of shit!” Roger Villa says to his wife. They’re on one of their famous road trips where anything can happen to fly out of his mouth and get him into trouble.
“They killed Miskitus like flies and that all went away like magic the day they became CIA assets.
Those sons of bitches are monsters and they even spun the shit out of the genocide and now they want to pretend that they’re the good guys, they think nobody remembers who authored Matemos la Karla Fonseca and Kaisa Tuaya, because now it turns out that those and all their other sicophantic shameless propaganda hatchet jobs wrote themselves.
They even accused the entire ethnicity of being Satanists!”
That’s when the soundbyte was cut in Radio Sirpi, Rosita and local newscaster Demetrio Jones says:
“…and at least Carlos Fonseca the dictator apologized even if it was just to get elected again. He wasn’t the one here celebrating their victory in January, 1984.
I saw Pánfilo Patiño—the beloved Matagalpan writer also known affectionately as Lingerie Gorilla—wearing a necklace made of human ears, penises and noses when they came to dolphin their bloodbath.
Donatella Mastromatteo was there too, she was wearing women’s nipples, yanked out clitorises and vaginal labia on a string around her neck because she’s a such a big feminist.
And they were both flown in on a military helicopter because their little pink asses can’t get stuck in the mud on the bed of an IFA truck for eight hours like the rest of us mere mortals.
They got piss drunk and blasted on pure cocaine, and took turns spewing caustic vitriol—calling people minoplease—on a mahogany podium in the park in Bilwi in front of a mass of bystanders who were there because they were all starving to death and had no other choice.
The worst part is that most of those miserable souls were related by blood to the slaughtered Indians.
I’ll tell you, there’s no way in hell this kid can know how right he is. I bet he wasn’t even alive for the Red Christmas.
It was probably that some old timer told him the story when he was growing up.
But even people in Bluefields don’t really know what happened.
Maybe the boy’s a Sukia… and that would explain why everyone around him gets so magically rich on his back, and he can’t seem to make his powers work for him.”
People in the communities had started to comment on the stolen soundbytes that were being posted on the Facebook pages behind his back on an irregular basis because it became more interesting than including the senseless hate and bile that Betsy’s trolls over-exploited to package themselves into all things Roger Villa.
The Indigenous communities were lucky enough that the crewcuck kleptocrats in Managua didn’t give a shit about them and that they could still sound like rational human beings when they talked. And their whole episode with Grisis Siknis served as a confirmation that you can’t just let mind poisoning go unchecked.
The difference between them and other populations was that they knew nobody was going to murder them and their entire families if they talked all the shit they wanted about Roger Villa amongst themselves.
That wasn’t the truth in Paris.
Before and after the genocides, the Indigenous communities had a steady stream of reprobate white pimps that came from the most abject forms of prostitution themselves. Nobody in the US and Europe was fighting over dealing with the likes of them, or allowing them to pop up in the shit holes they live in. And at the same time, to everyone, the Miskitu Indians were low-hanging fruit and had hundreds of millions —that they never saw— assigned to their people every year.
A lot of Nicaraguan poet/radio reality show hostage Roger Villa’s stolen intellectual property came in very handy over the nameless wood plank bar’s diesel generator-cooled beers.
A host of different logging and mining investors, NGO social workers, and central government visitors would meet constantly with communal authorities or other Indians that managed to pass themselves off as local political leaders successfully—or whomever was most agreeable to the outsider agenda. When the carpetbagger’s promises materialized, the gain of a good night out would yeild a bountiful harvest in the form of a full expenses paid trip to Managua or beyond, and making new friends.
Pascal Bidet felt particularly offended because of the evermore sardonic delivery of plagiarised college boy lib he was hearing among all the different Caribbean Coast Community leaders, and all the other extra stuff of wise cracks people would say to his face. Some of the Indigenous leaders who felt neglected or left out were now growing mullets or getting crewcuts as a sign of protest.
The idea of sending Roger Villa to the Indians in the coast, was cooked somewhere in the crowbar halls of the Rosewood Academy, the Kennedy Bi-National Center and/or the Embassy in Managua. Someone wanted him there taking a piece of the Indians’ pie that was really meant to be out of reach for the Indigenous and ethnic communities—and for him; he was only being allowed a taste to stir things up.
The field agents that were assigned to work with the poet are slightly older than him and at the time, were aspiring to the most tantamount of layers in their backstory performances. Roger Villa barely noticed their artificial bellyaching as he was trying to make sense of why he was there and not further along the way as an artist.
(Walter Young, or what he became after disappearing, was well-informed on Villa’s work and on a selection of biographical and news media that was also planted into his new mind).
It could be worse, he did odd jobs as a student, and off-brand journalism with covert CIA agents felt like he was heading in the right direction—on a fake road. The proto-novelist couldn’t imagine what it felt like to rely on his art, it was too soon and he was too terrorized for that. All of his communications were hijacked and it was obvious to the general public that was getting force-fed the torture show.
The trolls on Roger Villa’s Internet channels were making people insane, or at least scaring the sense out of them. After he blew their cover by e‑mailing the FBI, media outlets and his government, and publishing his Twitter lists on his website, they put him and everyone around him on a 24-hour dox cycle in retaliation.
One of the news documentarians, Gary Hodge the camera guy, was talking photos of him that he would later use to make surreal montages of the poet committing adultery—for Betsy’s Facebook pages and their massive email campaigns. The other one, Connor Lowe, was also a writer, he had much better clients than the poet, he was there to help along with interview questions and to make Roger Villa feel more desperate and submissive.
His credibility would always be founded on all the torment and humiliation that he would have to endure for far too long. The trolls were good at degrading the human condition for the likes of the poet. His in-laws and their extended family hated him. Despite being universally known, it was near impossible for him to get employment because anyone considering taking him on was blackmailed and tormented before they could even think of writing or calling him back.
Before devolving into a being a full-time troll on Twitter, Gary Hodge had worked in an extensive lineup of top American media outlets as a production assistant/intern. He was convinced that what he needed to move up the food chain was a compelling personal brand. He scheduled as many video conference calls as possible in pre-production to shoot the breeze and win the audience over as Villa’s guest. When they were out shooting in the field he’d connect his phone and Mac book to Villa’s hotspot and test the shit out of his cameras on his own face during their down time, hoping that that would be enough to make him the next it boy.
The likes of Paul Baher and Chuckass Feltcher were to be gracefully forgotten in the high seas of history and their sins dissolved by the achievement of the greater good. Long gone were to be the days when hosting a torture show on Internet video streaming had become the new normal. That was the new plan and everyone had to be on-board—or else.
The first problem that couldn’t be solved was the identity theft troll App. All the people who had it were hooked on the power trip of dodging their mineal existences. It was completely anonymous, and that allowed the crack bots to be as incendiary and vicious as they could possibly be. They recruited the poorest souls they could find for this thankless glue-sniffer task; people who stand up for the lowest standards when it comes to everything, whether it be in the material realm or in the quality of their ideas, and the deplorable ethics they uphold.
If one were to ignore the blatant intent of reckless endangerment that nobody was trying to mask, these round the clock military-style social engineering shifts and philistine mind control hacks could also—with some good old-fashioned coercion—be considered to be amateur performance art. This was the violent and irrational political standoff, that made the Obama administration give up and look the other way in its peak euphoria, and embed dog whistle cheers for violence and the apologia of crime in its darkest hour.
Nothing in all the data that made up Walter Young’s current level of awareness could support the claim that he had subscribed to receive SMS’ on his primitive ten-dollar Nokia cellphone. One of the subscriptions was attributed to Roger Villa and a couple of messages even made it to his inbox when they crossed paths. He would become familiar with the Twitter lists long after his time in this world. The other subscriptions or text conversations with whomever was there to read them would always be about the nobody poet and why whatever he was doing or that the last thing he said was complete nonsense and everybody should just ignore him.
He’d never heard of Roger Villa until these people couldn’t shut up about him. From what he could gather during those hyped up years, was that Villa was a Bluefields poet from the new generation and that his stepfather had worked for the Regional Council in the 1990’s. Aside from Ruben Dario, Villa was the only poet he could mention without worrying about getting the name right, and that was the only truly useful thing about the overstalked celebrity mouthpiece. All the things that he could say about politics, colonialism and race relations were already in everyone’s minds, Villa just found new ways of saying them out loud.
On his trips out to the Caribbean Coast they’d make a big deal about the shoddy Creole he spoke and would basically ignore what the people had to say and the stories they told him about their ancestral heritage. Villa did a good job of acting like he was interested in Indigenous people’s culture and would use coast elements in his works.
Sometimes on the eavesdropping radio show, his wife wasn’t telling him what a selfish piece of shit he is, and you could listen to him typing away on his keyboard to soft instrumental music in the background. People would then wait patiently for the screenshots that were published in real-time on whatever Facebook page the current “Rufus” was using.
“No one like read no focking book and no book ever change nothing—He writing the Bible.” Miss Ellis, his mother, says laughing with a cackle.
“Like everyone no done know that them is all thief and murderer—big mystery!”
“And bunkie man!” One of the little kids who’s playing tag yells from the garden.
“I no understand why them can’t leave the man alone.” Walter remembers hearing someone else that he couldn’t remember, with his own ears when he was alive and well in the coast. The man’s face was a difused blur in his memory.
He would get upset whenever it was too rough and he would hear the poet break down and cry like a small child. And now as whatever he was in the duhindu’s power he too would sob when it was too much and they wouldn’t let him guide his own mind or when they would overload him with data that didn’t interest him. He didn’t hate Roger Villa, he just wasn’t keen in being a literary scholar. There were all sorts of topics that he would have preferred to explore throughout eternity.
“This is where I plant my cassava…” Luis Salomon says to the camera in one of the interviews in the documentary film that hired the poet as a freelancer.
The Rama Indian in old rolled-up jeans and rubber flip-flops points at a sprout on the soil with his machete that’s been dulled down into a long dagger from extensive sharpening and use.
“… and that is where I plant my dasheen.”
There is a silence.
“Did you get that?” Roger whispers as quietly as he can into Gary Hodge’s ear, he’s holding an upward camera angle that makes Luis Salomon look statuesque.
“Yes.” He says out loud after another long pause.
“I no want them to build that [interoceanic] canal.” He says. “It’s going to destroy everything we have here.”
Hodge holds his breath hoping that the older man keep spitting out trailer-worthy soundbytes like the one they just heard.
“Plenty people here want see progress, them say. All the timber you see here, is billion dollars—not million. Billion! So we musn’t let them thief it like that and destroy the land.”
“When I was your age, I’m sixty now, there used to be plenty more animals by these parts. We have plenty more to eat in the bush, plenty more them fish in the sea and in the rivers.”
“Now rivers are drying up and the sea is more and more dead.”
“Before we never have no cows. I never see cow before, until now.”
“The children them learn Spanish in the school, everything is Spanish. Them is mestizo Spaniard is what I tell them whenever you hear them speaking Spanish and playing by the trees. Them going want put on one cowboy suit for ride horse and bull when them grow and drink up.”
“How long have the mestizos been here?” Gary asks with his head tilted towards the right.
“Long time before but plenty started coming in with the war and now there is plenty more, making cow farms in the jungle.”
Walter had corporeal sensations that could be nothing more than phantom pains as far as he knew. He was unable to determine if the dreamscape he was in occurred within a biological mind. Each day he’d lived on Earth had been replayed in his head too many times to remember properly. It was as if he was in a coma that outlived every man woman and child in the human species.
“They’re all Contras, the people coming in and taking the Indigenous people’s lands. They fought on the same side during the war in the eighties.” Roger Villa says over beers on one of the evenings whenz, they were in production.
“How do you know that?” Gary asks.
“Because they all vote for the liberal parties. The land invaders in the Southern Caribbean coast are the peasant movement that opposes the Canal. They’re all Contras.”
The conversation had been recovered from Gary Hodge’s cellphone because Villa forgot to charge his phone or didn’t charge it intentionally to take a break from being tracked. Either way the circumstances weren’t scandalous any longer. Walter Young couldn’t care less if Roger Villa had the intention of getting busy with some girl in the community that could be used to make his wife jealous. For all Walter knew, thousands of years had passed and that could never be the reason that an augmented version of what was left of his mind was being used to scan these recordings.
Despite all the neural pathways that had been blocked or inhibited, Young was given enough space for his own self-awareness to exist as a separate entity from the rest of the universe that had been programed into the simulation he lived in. He’d lost his mind on a number of occasions and it had been deleted and replaced with an incorrupt backup copy. There was a period of time in which Walter thought or knew that he would be briefed on his discoveries on the subject that was imposed on him. That day never came and if it did he wasn’t allowed any memory of it.
“And now the President of Kakabila is selling them land for make them farm.”
“They can’t sell land because of Law 445” Villa says.
“Well plenty people say that with Law 840 the government can thief it from we so is better if we sell it before. I hope we never have to do that because if we do we are only buying disgrace for our grandchildren.”
Every time Walter Young lost his mind to the point of his own demise, his latest working backup would start over again at the beginning of the Roger Villa data reel. He always remembered everything until he was back where the furthest point of his progression was made. There were always new details or new ways of reading the Nicaraguan author’s stories. There were characters that were a certain way for centuries like Friedegunde Klopstock from The Brothers, who he read for centuries as a cold-hearted butcher, and then on a new process he grew to understand all the suffering that she removed from her world.
Another anomaly that had been built into his new ontology was that he would be condemned to returning to an originary image that he didn’t really believe in of himself. He thought the profiling used to build it was thoroughly fraudulent and corrupt. It was some pathetic social media algorithm that some criminal in India tweeked to squeeze more expensive car payments, from the genocide and other political troubles of his people and more specifically to him, his personal tragedies and other captured moments of poor taste.
His beliefs from when he was alive made no sense to him anymore. There was no forest left, no one was supposed to outlive the spirit of the jungle. Walter wasn’t sure he’d outlived anything, though it does seem like it had been an awfully long time since he was a corporeal being. He was being guarded by a slave species because he’d learned that that’s what the duhindu are, and perhaps he would be like them when he was finished with what he was doing for their masters, rummaging through every last trace of Roger Villa that was collected from earth.
The duhindu seemed completely oblivious to the value of Walter’s long-term mind assignments, although they were telepathic and their infrequent chatter could be heard in his mind like the memory of audible words or animal sounds.
His memories and those others that had been implanted into his mind had turned him into someone else, who he appreciated more than his organic self. He obviously felt violated and could never truly feel happy for his cognitive gains. Walter yearned for his human body more than anything else. He’d learned to love everything he’d seen as a flaw when he was human. There was nothing he wouldn’t give to run from one end of the beach to the other with all his strength, to the point of exhaustion and to feel the wind on his body while the waves in the ocean crash in his ears.
Villa’s fiction gave him solace and allowed his mind to escape from historical reality. He’d relived every day of his life an infinite amount of times and felt an excruciating embarrassment by almost everything he ever did. In contrast, reading about characters from different stories allowed him an approximation to living in the world again and experiencing events that he could only dream of about when he was alive. Whether the time away was real or simulated made no difference to him, it had been an eternity that cost him his memories and was then in turn long enough for him to regain them.
“Can you rent them the land? Gary asks.
“That we can do.” Don Eduardo responds. “But that also cause plenty problems, because what if them no want leave after?”
The old man looks into his rubber boots that are firmly planted in the jungle mud. It had rained hard the night before. He’s scratching a mosquito bite on his leg with his dulled down machete.
“And you have the people who get the money paid to them. They want be in Bluefields all the time, buy moto, carry plenty woman to the restaurant them, and forget about the community here.”
Don Eduardo’s mother a 98 year-old woman called Jennifer was one of the last people in the entire territory who could still speak the Rama language. They were supposed to talk to her the following day in the afternoon.
In Walter’s suspended state of being, he was able to rebuild all the old Rama Indian stories that made it to Don Eduardo’s ears when he was a small child in the 1950’s, back then the jungle was much more dense and bountiful and the people were much more uncontacted and Indigenous. He had been him and many others as a child in an unfathomable number of simulations that spanned throughout parallel multiverse dimensions. Mayangnas that appeared in characters in poetry and that were later developed as mythical archetypes by artificial intelligence, had rich vivid infancies that Walter experienced as if they were his own.
The Indigenous canon that he had essentiated over time represented a set of splendorous poetic games that gave enormous pleasure to his obsessive examination. He had never felt any interest in literature when he was alive, but he began to eventually after the duhindu abducted him. Looking back, Walter grew to believe that the his only true concern was continuing to live. And that was still a driving force in his present form except now he wasn’t alive anymore. There was one moment of hope that he would replay in his mind every few years. He was still alive in the coast in Nicaragua and everything else had just been a bad dream. The years would fly by in the blink of an eye and he would be back in that profound disappointment again.
There was a woman in the jungle she was picking fruit and her baby was close by. They were on their way to her sister’s cottage, a day and half’s walk away. Kruubu she says, they have a specific smell that people back then knew all too well. The species populations were ten times higher than in Walter’s times. His simulations were so good that he was also able to smell their scent, he would never know if it was just like when Berta was a girl. Nonetheless there was a difference and it seemed worthwhile to him in that eternity. Kruubus were what the ancient Rama called tigers and their was scent strong, it smelled like a very thick version of a cat pissed house.
According to legend, the Rama people are part Kruubu and part human they can feel the rain forest in the same way that the Kruubu can, in Rama they both speak the same language.
She gathers up her infant son with his toys and hides in the roots of giant royal cedar that had been bound three hundred years before by an ancestor that planted rain forest trees that could serve as refuges for hunters and animals near an impromptu agricultural plot in their nomadic planting cycles.
The tree had grown over an eroded wall of clay and soil and became a den in the form of a demented claw that was excavated by generations of campers and animals and had grown to become a comfortable station for every inhabitant cultured and wild in what would eventually become the Indio Maiz reserve. By the time that Walter was there in a computer-generated excursion, it was mostly buried under the dirt after a period when only vermin and insects were able to return to the space concealed under the piled up clay and transitory vegetation.
The mother crawls into the den with her child and settles in to a clean dent inside. They would stay there for the night. It began to rain heavily and it continued to for the rest of the night and well into the morning. When the monsoon eventually passed, the tiger’s smell was also gone, it had been washed away. The mother could sense that she wasn’t far away, as she looked around outside for tracks.
She could feel her close, and that’s when she turned around and saw the beast pulling her still unnamed child out of the den. Soon after the tiger returned for her as she had suspected. The Indian woman was running and quickly climbed an almond tree with some vines and the kruubu was too heavy and old to follow her up, so she paced around the tree and waited there until after sunset. She sat in the highest branches that could hold her and gazed into the rainfall and the forest canopy. She decided that she would call her dead infant Sur.
When she eventually climbed down she decided to walk on the beach for part of the way, it would take more time but she would be safer from the kruubu who had already tasted her child’s blood. She finally made it to her sister’s cottage on the other side of the mountain. It was there when she could finally weep for her baby.
When Clarence, her sister’s husband returned from hunting in the forest he told them the story of the three tiger cubs he killed under the rain while their mother was far off in the jungle stalking her own prey. They ate the animals tender flesh in a Ngulkang with plenty of peppers.
When Walter was a child he never wanted to go too deep into the jungle, he would make sure he was always armed and with at least four hunting dogs to alert him of any threats in their surroundings. The Rama were part tiger, that was what they believed and originally they were just tigers with nothing human about them. The Miskitu—his people—were a mixture of Mayangnas and fugutive slaves from Africa. They had escaped from a slave ship in Rio San Juan and gradually made their way North to Mayangna settlements were they fought bitter battles and then began to produce Zambos with the Mayangna women that they held captive. Eventually The Miskitu King grew to dominate the Caribbean coast as the British Empire’s most trusted ally.
Jennifer had heard the story from her mother who’d heard it from hers and it was thought to be from before their first Creoles landed in Monkey Point in the XVII Century. An epoch in which they had never seen anyone who wasn’t an Indian before and they were still the Old Rama. By their own account there was a time when many of them consider that they were animals and had no idea that man was its own species.
“We never have no clothes like the English and the Spaniard them, and no need for them neither because our minds were clean. Everywhere was bountiful and the bush never finish when you gone into the land.”
There were photos, video, drawings and eventually late in the XXI Century the pyramids in the Indio Maiz reserve were excavated and that also generated image libraries that were stored into Walter’s mind and that he could assimilate when he reminisced of being in the jungle on a long hike under the trees. When he was alive the roads in the Moquito Coast were lined with kilometers of tree stumps that never ended on both sides of the road and that ran infinitely into the horizon.
“We used to have the same language as the tigers and it was also called Kruubu. And all the stories happen right here in the bush, you can see plenty marks from the stories them when you walk in between the communities.”
There were 3D models of what sound waves could render from Villa’s phone that began in 2006 and continued for the rest of his life. For the most part every move he made was stalked by the most pathological gaze that the most dishonorable of existences can produce. Transportation was a major theme at the time and the topic was able to unite more powerfully that religion and politics. Other 20th Century comforts that surprised no one in conventional media, were looked upon as provocative blasphemy. Having some troll’s most ridiculous loser buttons pressed was justification enough to make death threats, inspire sabotage schemes and organize black montage competitions in the Kennedy Center.
The first time Walter ever read Roger Villa, was years after those incursions into the communities took place. He wasn’t really paying attention to their simultaneous radio transmissions when they aired because he was still fortunate enough to have a life of his own during that period. He could walk down the park in Bilwi and drink ice-cold beer after nightfall. In those days there was no ominous Internet and people would buy prated DVDs with live musical concerts and TV appearances with Spanish-language singers from the 1970’s like Braulio and Jose Luis Perales in playlists with White Snake, Air Supply, Michael Jackson, Patsy Kline, Eddy Santiago and Bob Marley.
What Walter read first was a poem that had been stolen through a screenshot from Villa’s laptop in 2022. Years after he’d left Nicaragua fearing for his life and Betsy’s institutions were still very infatuated with him. They’d tried building a site with a paywall and that didn’t work because no one in their right mind would ever give their credit card information or any information to those demented criminals. That poem was in everyone’s mouth and all the slang Harold Blooms of the day were cheapening whatever they could in an effort to grandstand as a gutter mind among the scum of the earth.
As far as piracy goes, Walter never saw anything wrong with it. He would have never been exposed to anything as a Miskito Indian from Bilwi if piracy wasn’t running rampant and looting the hell out intellectual property. Piracy was basically the media where he was from. Roger Villa was constantly caught downloading torrents are well and when trolls would tease him about having a double morality, the poet would defend himself by saying that he didn’t have anything against piracy, his only problem was that he would really prefer to be pirated after he was finished with a project and not being leaked while he was typing away on an incomplete work. Roger Villa would have loved to be able to afford a copy of Trados without a trojan virus in it, but the boycott against him made it impossible.
Another particularity and this one was unique to Roger Villa, was that the paragraphs stolen from whatever he was writing were edited in order to put the poet and his family in danger and to provoke attacks against them.
“I no want them to build no Canal.” Don Eduardo says gazing into the camera, like a curious child. “I no want the mestizo them to come here and invade our land. I can’t do nothing here, we need the people in Bluefields, in the Regional Council, in Managua and the world to stop this nonsense.”
This was one of those memories that Walter couldn’t know if it actually happened that way. It was identical to anything else that could move through his mind in his suspended state. The only difference with this memory was, an unjustifiable deja vu. He’d seen the trailer on a phone screen when one day for some reason someone played it on their Android YouTube app.
That night when the Salomon brothers landed during the hurricane season monsoon, the sea was rabid like a sick hunting dog that you were going to have to put down. When Luis and Bernardo landed in Haulover the house had been blown away part of the coastline was gone and some of the trees had fallen. You could never feel bad about striking the sea with all your strength because she was too powerful. Is only the white man who can ruin the ocean like a coward, poison her with his carelessness and turn her into death for everyone, humans and the animals alike. Bernardo remembers when his dog as a kid had rabies, the poor animal wasn’t herself anymore and all she could bring about was suffering for the demon that took her over and others. A lot of the animals went missing after the hurricane and many were sick when they returned.
Author and digital mediascape artist. CONTACT FOR WORKS AND COMMISSIONS. Published poetry collections include: Conflagración Caribe (Poetry, 2007), the limited edition Nicaraguan memoir Poetas Pequeños Dioses (2006), Novísimos: Poetas Nicaragüenses del Tercer Milenio (2006) and 4M3R1C4 Novísima Poesía Latinoamericana (2010). And for the time being, The Hyacinth: An On-going Nat Sec Story (literary fiction), is in the process of being written, the work touches on a variety of themes that include global trafficking, surveillance capitalism, hysterical depravity, mind control, criminal tyranny, economic coercion, racist astroturfing, whacktivism, online disruption, gag warfare, proxy terrorism, deepfake attacks, 21st Century slavery, Et al.
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